right from the beginning our ending has begun

instead of doing research for my final papers like i should be, i wasted my time writing this. right now i'm just happy that the production, as much as i'm excited about it, is a great distraction from other messes in my life. i'm so tired and drained from everything else, and i would find it so hard to keep going if not for the little things. i need the little rewards now, things happening that tell me: "hey, it's not all bad. you're going to make it." alright, time to actually get to work.