only want to teach you about you

standing outside the zoo, at the ben and jerry's (which, far from the highlight of the trip, was nevertheless a satisfying conclusion), talking about little things while just assimilating what today was about. sheer simple pleasure. my favourite kind.

and i guess i keep realising over and over how much little things make me happy, and how much happier i am just being myself and doing what i like doing. and if that means acting like a kid all over again and running about the zoo with wide-eyed wonder as if life has again become fascinating, then fine. because i don't need anyone to tell me what i should be doing. i don't need anyone acting superior simply because they fail to comprehend the simplicity of life when appearances are stripped away.

list of 5 things that make me happy:
listening to music, and i mean really listening, and feeling the meaning of it
watching movies, and i mean watching properly, to understand what you're seeing
taking photographs, and trying your best not just to preserve a memory, but to preserve beauty
writing, to reach people and to hold up a mirror to yourself
being with people who matter, and who think that i matter

simple things. and that's really what the world needs more of, because everyday we're caught up with doing things we don't want to do while we could really be making a difference to ourselves or others, or simply be enjoying every moment. it gets scary when you think about how little time we have in this world, and there really is no point wasting even a single second over things that make you miserable.

of course, tomorrow, i will forget all of this and maybe find myself somewhere i didn't want to be doing something i didn't want to do with people i didn't want to be with. which is the problem with being me. i just don't know what to do with myself. most of the time.