i can't look at the rocket launch, the trophy wives of the astronauts

had my first pangs of homesickness today. funny how it came at the weirdest possible time.

second city kicks total ass. they are like THE original improv comedy group and their comedy is fantastic. we got a free showing at the shoreland, cos my resident master actually got them to come down. great show. think 'who's line is it anyway?', but live and much more spontaneous. maybe less polished, but still great.

which kinda brings me to my point. the very last thing i saw on singaporean tv was 'who's line', the morning i was due to fly off. and while watching second city, i had this huge hit of reality, that i won't be able to watch tv in my home living room for the next perhaps 9 months. and that means there are a lot of other things i'm not going to be able to do. and while it was a good time for the homesickness to kick in, cos i almost immediately found something to laugh at and take my mind off it, it also just basically said to me that homesickness can hit at just anytime, especially when you least expect it.

on another note, i realised today why singaporeans tend to stick with singaporeans and other internationals overseas, even those who, like me, swore back hoime they'll try not to. it's just that our priorities are soooo different. to the americans, college is a time to have fun, enjoy their last days of youthful irresponsibility while having the autonomy and cash to. and it's totally different from all of us scholarship kids. i realise that if i get into trouble here, it's not just my education on the line. my entire career hinges on my doing well in school and getting through college without screwing up. and i told this to one of my roommates, who was, like most americans i've met, suitably supportive and nice, but i don't think he really gets it. which i don't mind, because i don't quite get it myself. and as much as i would like to enjoy myself and do wild stupid things, i know i can't. and i guess that's why the internationals stick together, doing stuff that we can do to make life less mundane while still keeping our eyes firmly on the goal.

so yeah, i like hanging out with the other internationals. because they are like me, but not, which is like being back home. that, and they kinda know what i'm facing, cos they're facing the same things too.