posting song lyrics is of course the alternative to actually thinking of something to say. which is not to say that i have nothing to say, just that most of the time i think in terms of song lyrics anyways. which is rather pretentious and uncool, but still.
right now listening to 'girl' by stereophonics, which just came up on my playlist with its catchy intro. my playlist which has ballooned over the years into a 4 days and a bit monster. 4 days as in, it will actually take that long to play every single song. at least according to winamp. i think it's significantly shorter than that, somewhere around 2 and a half days. winamp doesn't count too good. it's something that i am both strangely proud of and ashamed of. proud because it's a pretty incredible amount of music. ashamed because most of it is crap. crap that i just can't be bothered to delete off my computer cos i'd probably lost the actual record already and will one day have a yearning to listen to that exact song.
the reason why i'm going on about this is simply cos i'm putting off something. i suppose usually, when you are leaving, people write you little notes to express their sincere and heartfelt goodbyes. so me, being the departing party, shouldn't be writing goodbye notes to anyone. but then again, if you think about it, seperation is seperation. it's not really a matter of one person leaving the other behind, because if you look at it, it's just two people going away from each other, even if one party seems to be the one rooted to where it all began. because it's not a geographical thing at all. it's an emotional, mental thing that shouldn't be tied down to any kind of boundary. rambling now, and probably not making much sense apart from sounding extremely defensive over this soon-to-be-goodbye-note i'm soon to be writing. a note which will probably end up sounding utterly crap.
which is also why i made CDs for people who i actually wanted to write goodbye notes for so far. because, i do think in song lyrics, and if you listen to all the songs and distill the correct parts out of them, then you'll get some kind of awkward goodbye. which really is the only kind of goodbye there is.
and now for something completely different (doing my best monty python impersonation):
the reason why i don't really ever like anyone is that most of the time, people i think i like end up doing something incredibly inconsiderate or unkind, and reminds me totally why he/she is a jerk/bitch and therefore not actually a nice person i would like to know.
i would like for that to happening significantly less, and instead just have said persons act as jerks/bitches all the time or at least when i first meet them so i never have to ever think about whether these people are acceptable in my book, which, much like having crossing outs on your notepad, is ugly.
the end of double post.
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