take off those glasses and let down your hair for me

in six words: here, till you change your mind.

now for everyone else who the above made absolutely no sense to: it's so hard trying to reconcile yourself to the way your life is going sometimes. i've expressed this belief frequently, but i think it's just because of how far away my life is now from what i envisioned it to be. and when you get this much doubt about the efficacy of your attempts at bringing your plans to fruition, you really can't feel good about life.

which is not to say i feel bad about life, because where i am is not an entirely uncomfortable place. i am not content though, which is to say i feel like things could be better, but i'm not sure how to get there. i've decided to see the past few months as a useful diversion, a glimpse at something that's not quite what my life is about, but nonetheless teaches me interesting lessons. it's like those episodes of 'lost' that's about sun and jin: it's not really that important to the main plot, but it does help you get a better grip of the overall tale.

now that i'm done comparing my life with 'lost', here's a more concrete statement: i suppose i didn't expect to get involved with anyone, even though i probably wanted to. but now that it's done, i can't help but feel as if i should have done better, despite not having anticipated what was needed. but if nothing else, it did confirm my belief that when you've met the right person, you will be entirely comfortable and the conversation will always flow delightfully, despite the banality of its contents. mind you that's the necessary but insufficient condition. also, there's still the problem of actually getting that person to agree to your point of view, which is a difficult proposition.

a final note: ignoring the apparent impossibility of me having heard an album that technically hasn't been released, i highly recommend my morning jacket's 'evil urges'. patrick hallahan is an amazing drummer, and jim james just keeps getting better.