you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

i wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
and if you do not want to see me again i will understand.

- 'jumper', third eye blind

which is a surprisingly nice song from an otherwise unimpressive band. and for some reason, it resonates with me. not because i'm going to jump off a building or that i know someone whou is about to. it just seems to sound right, like something i would say to someone, especially the last two lines.

i watched bewitched today, which would have been an utterly meritless waste of money, apart from the fact that nicole kidman was in it. she looks amazing for her age, and one wonders why tom cruise dumped her from talentless katie holmes.

but mainly, i spent time with two good friends tonight, which usually would make me very happy, but nowadays just makes me worried. because so very soon i'll be leaving, and as much as i would like to believe that our friendship would endure the distance, the divergence of experience that begun with JC is about to become, i believe, much too much for any friendship to bear.

and one of them reminded me how important the people i've met at PDC are supposed to be, because when i return, my friends would be overseas and i will be left with my fellow scholars, who while being absolutely amazing people in their own right, are still mere strangers compared to my old friends. a thought that was rather sobering.

on a sidenote, i finally received my I-20 form from chicago, which means my problems are almost settled.