till i believe i was the crazy one and in a way i guess i was

list of 5 things not to do on a tuesday morning:

wake up late
skip breakfast
wear the wrong shoes
say stupid things
ice skate

right. not a very good day today is it?

well actually, it wasn't too bad. when people are willing to have fun together, they'll have fun (right william?) . so yeah. i have 2 rather nasty blisters, one per foot, which is going to annoy me for a while. but yeah. it was alright. for some reason i feel like i'm trying to reassure myself it was.

i guess on many levels, i'll never fit in with the PDC people. they are just too... awake... for me. too much wild energy, annoyingly so at times. and i'm as low energy as it gets. it takes a lot of time for me to warm up to people and after that, i'll really be just drained. so urgh. but i've coped with this kind of thing for years. it's easier when you're with people you really really care about, and i guess with the other scholars, it's not nearly close to that level yet. and we're all flying off in just weeks, which is mindblowing to infinity.

got my first exit permit ever today. going to malaysia for the weekend. not my first choice dates, cos i wanted to stay for national day and fireworks and everything. but no choice. family obligation, and i do want to go before i leave for good. i think over the last couple of years, i've really been distanced from my extended family, and it's sad but i don't quite feel anything honestly.

and i bought a messenger bag today. for my laptop and my books and my stuff. it's not stupid crumpler, the number one over bought brand in singapore. i mean, there are 12 year olds with crumpler bags and i'm thinking their parents are either too rich, too crazy or both. i bought an adidas, my favourite brand of stuff, and it cost me only 55 dollars. it was the last new piece (left only display, sorry chim!) and it rocks. it's black and stuff and damn big. going to carry it with me on the plane and everywhere. haha. i sound positively idiotic.

a rather disjointed post. but i'm really in an odd frame of mind. just finished another 3 hour KOTORII session. i'll save the galaxy yet!