Thursday, July 03, 2008

i cannot make light i'm so burnt out

so walking home from a fun, but also at times painful, gathering, i realize they kept the lights on all the time in borders. apart from merely being a huge waste of resources, i was wondering why they did that. it sure made the place look very inviting, an impression i guess they hope would endure till their store hours the next day. made me want to just get inside, find a corner and just sit.

this place is extremely lonely when i'm the only one around. it's just much too big for one person to have alone, and i realize that starting next saturday, for about half a month, that's going to be my situation. i really hope i manage to somehow get out of this. perhaps i shall head to the twin cities the weekend after, though as it stands that might be awkward. which brings me to a quick point: it doesn't help either way, but at least it's easier to pretend when i keep my distance.

in a separate note, it seems someone decided to post all 4 seasons of Ed on mininova, and now i have 2.5 seasons downloaded. 5 episodes into season 1, i've had one revelation: despite the entire premise of the show being about how nice guys don't always finish last, i don't at all identify with its protagonist. i'm pretty much screwed.

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