是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非？

instead of doing math homework, i'm blogging. annoying bloody 8 equations 6 unknowns. easy but tedious, which i've grown to hate most. bio final in 36 hours, of which 16 will be spent sleeping and another 5 in class, leaving 15 hours to finish this problem set i'm working on. but i digress from the actual digression. here are the random thoughts:

(i managed to actually write out all 8 equations. and it looks like i actually have to solve for all 6 unknowns to get my final answer which only requires 2 out of the 6. grrrrr!)

so in the last 4 days i have:
watched "good night, and good luck" (great acting, black and white still looks cool)
ate thai food (again....)
party in the house (no comments)
ate char siew and roast pork, plus durian(?!) (can't wait to go home for better char siew and roast pork)
ate japanese food
went shopping (and spent waaaaaay too much money)
watched xmen 3 (finally we are seeing some epic action - the body count finally got ridiculous)
ate uno's pizza (THE original chicago style deep dish pizza)
had BBQ at the shoreland (the most hotdogs i can eat at one sitting is a puny 2)
smores by the lake(more fun than delicious)

all in all a good weekend. and now, all that's left are 2 more days of classes. my last SOSC class ever is tomorrow. last bio class ever will be on wednesday, and with any luck, my last pure math class will be on wednesday. then it's just the small matter of the final exams that stands between my way and home. thankfully, the weather has decided to become unbearably hot, which will ease the transition back to tropical weather. tropical reminds me that i want to eat a whole mango so badly.

(at this point, i realise that i haven't learnt the material i need to finish math homework. went to download the files i need to study bio instead)

i've also decided to just stop caring/worrying about my housing problems. the matter is simply beyond my control right now. as long as i have an apartment to come back to, and a mattress to sleep off the jetlag, i'll be alright for the few days after i get back. then all i need is cash to shop at ikea. the finances, while looking thin, are not worrying.

i also decided today that happiness is a most elusive condition. i think by the end of the finals, i will be relieved. by the time i get on the plane to go home, i'll be excited. by the time i reach home, it will probably be a feeling of both combined. but happiness, i believe, is a state where one feels completely at ease with their life. when one would reject the opportunity to change parts of their lives. and that is most rare indeed.

and while i indulge in chinese pop music, melting in the sweltering chicago summer, i am calm knowing that i will soon return to the place in the world where i have at least a chance of being happy.