keep you head in the clouds, like a star

suddenly after a couple of hectic weeks, things have died down just a little and i am breathing hard to catch up. after a very restful weekend (and monday), i think i'm ready to move on ahead.

i realise that a lot of people i know are getting overwhelmed by a lot of things. and i just want to say to everyone: hang in there. life is hard, but so are you. bad things will pass as all things do, and when you emerge better than you were, it will be alright. don't let things now get you down, because ultimately what happens isn't important, it's what you take away from it.

enough of my being wise and worldly. i also realise that i will never be one of those people who know lots of stuff and quote liberally great works of wisdom. i'm one of those people who learn by doing. i can't pay attention in class or read fast, i need to think about what is happening and process that information. the fact that i am not floundering somewhere means that i can probably do that quite well. but i must at once be knowledgeable and ignorant, because so much of what people says goes over my head, but makes sense when i try to integrate everything into a coherent world view.

to justify my lack of knowledge, i would say that i've met loads of people who know a lot of things, but are obviously worse off for it, or none the better, because there is a fine line between knowing things and understanding how they relate to you. a lot of things are nice to know but pointless, and ultimately cloud what you see of yourself. that's why i don't remember anything i can't explain to people, because there is no point knowing anything you cannot understand yourself.

at the same time, i am very happy these couple of weeks. life seems to have settled into a place where i can see its meaning, i can be content with where i am and where i am going. i see good things in front of me, which is the best anyone can ever hope for i suppose.