有我的陪伴你再也不孤单

yes, there is a certain schizophrenic nature in blogging. this is in response to hongwan's inaugural blog post. but then again, humans are inherently schizophrenic, because most times, if we bring our real self to a situation, it goes badly, so we have to carry personas around that are fit for general consumption.

take me for instance. right now, i have at least 4 (or 5) different personalities. i have:

day-to-day-me, who is pretty good at doing math problems and has intelligible comments for HUMA and SOSC classes , and talks in an american accent (try to imagine that). he tries to be smart and critical, and enjoys the regular dose of coffee to keep him awake and alive.

then there is singaporean-me, which gets turned on whenever singaporean/malaysian population around me out numbers any other nationality, and he is rather loud and chatty, and can speak in a smattering of english, mandarin and various exclamations in dialect. he is frank and straightforward, and wants to have fun.

then there is blog-me, who is very introspective and sometimes rather wise, but not well recieved by the rest of my personalities who choses not to believe him. he speaks (well, writes) in semi-grammatical english but often choses to not capitalize the right words. he thinks himself the most honest of all 5, but is almost entirely wrong.

there is also alone-me, who is generally sulky and uninteresting. he often lives in his own world, with harry potter-esque fantasies about school but with swords instead of wands, and dreams of making the ultimate movie with himself as the lead character. he speaks in song lyrics and quotes almost exclusively.

there is one last personality, meaningful-conversation-me, who is effectively bilingual and is the most honest of all 5. he usually says things that are either humorous or interesting, hopefully to incite favorable responses from the person he is talking to at that very moment. sometimes, he enjoys telling his life story, but usually exaggerates a little.

don't be alarmed. because i am obviously not schizophrenic. but it is really easy to compartmentalise your personality, especially since we do so naturally all the time. it's just that if you look at it consciously, it can get pretty scary.

and honestly, what i am blogging these days (well, not a lot anyways), does not at all reflect what i really want to be telling everyone. not really.