sometimes with the windows closed she'll sit and think of me

just walking about campus today gave me two strange thoughts:

first, a somewhat frequent concern about how differently my life might have turned out. it really isn't any kind of big decision that drives us down particular paths, but the hidden exigencies that might remain invisible which gets to me. who is to say the factors that led to me having something for lunch would not also have caused me to become someone else if i had chosen to eat something instead. that sounded silly, but i do believe, or maybe fear what path i have chosen.

secondly, i realized that i write this blog because i believe in information. more than a few times in the past week, i had wished to simply have had a better clue about what people thought. so call this my contribution to our understanding of psyche. i just wished people who read this would be forthcoming to me in return.