being back in chicago has solidified the idea that first occurred to me while i was on a train, somewhere between washington dc and boston. it was a revelation set to music, simply put by kevin devine in those two lines that gave the title to this post:
"and when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase,
it's what you've become and it's what you will stay"
perhaps because the train ride was so wonderful, i felt particularly receptive to messages, and it has stuck. the cliche would be to say that i should try to make the best of the situation, but even that is a kind of change isn't it? optimism is a quality not unlike patience, and it's not something you just acquire.
so what is left? it's the answer that i've had for the longest time: you cope. as hard as it might be, as terrible as it might make you feel, you just cope. the only other option is just that much worst.
i'm not happy, but what else is new? i'm just surprised how quickly the levity dissipated. perhaps there isn't any room for that in my life either.
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