and though the comedy softens the fall they still hear us with ears to the wall

after a long restful weekend, i realise that most of the academic year is done and now it's time to really wrap up everything. for some reason, this entire year has been very self-contained, and i'm anticipating something to happen that would make it so obvious that the year is done and i have to move on.

right now the main thing on my mind is the apartment next year, and worrying about how to rustle up the requisite funds to turn the blank slate into something habitable. which really is going to cost a lot cos i have high standards. as it stands, my room itself is going to cost about 1000 USD. how am i going to get the money? and there's also the living room and dining room, electronics, houseware.... ahhhhhhh!!!! but i suppose those worries are premature, and whatever i spend on will be for the next couple of years so it will be worth it.

summer break is looking good. got my internship, which should be interesting and at the very least prevent me from wasting away at home. and it still leaves more than a month to do whatever, which looks like it could involve a trip to hongkong right now. i also want to go to bangkok as well, but that can always wait. again, all dependent on availability of funds.

but most of all, i just want to go see my friends again. people who understand where i'm coming from. people who don't see me as a one-dimensional stereotype. people i can actually talk to. people i can do whatever i want with. it gets so tiring having to be myself all the time, and i just want to not be careful anymore.