there's nothing we can do about the things we have to live without

(half the time i abandon these mid-post because i can't think of an appropriate title.)

so it's been a week since beauty world ended. and so far it has been a pretty nice week. even with the midterm and paper both on friday, which gave the week a slightly stressful overtone that was nevertheless balanced by the sheer relief of having no rehearsals. the best analogy is really like what happens after you stop hitting yourself on the head with a hammer. it feels good, but it's really just normal. and normal is nice. the paper could have been better and much more focus would have been good for the midterm (though it didn't turn out as bad as i expected - got my results via email already).

so the weekend started to doc (friday first show, even though it takes up the whole of dinnertime, is a really good show cos it leaves the night free), seeing the most boring movie ever. still good times to be had because being in the booth just has a relaxing effect for me. the party was really nice, with good drinks and even better company. EC was more productive than usual and downtown shopping was really nice too (another pair of levis for 20 dollars!). dinner in chinatown was a feast of singaporean food (thinking hainanese chicken rice, mutton rendang and chendol to top it off) and mahjong to round up a most enjoyable weekend. and i'm beginning to feel like i could live like this forever.

unlike most things, the sense of emptiness after beauty world has yet to kick in. and i wonder whether it is because i know that at the very least, the production brought us all closer to each other, and that's really more than we can ever hope for in life. there is meaning there, even as everything else that comes out of it starts fading into nothingness.