new facebook is doing a good job, despite my hatred of it. it seems to be facilitating more communication, which as far as i can tell, has been manifesting itself as comments on my wall about my status. i would like to think that my status writing abilities have improved, but knowing that they haven't, i have to admit that something must have triggered this greater attention.
i decided today that i wasn't going to try and convince people about things anymore. i'm just going to avoid doing that. if you disagree with me, that's alright, and even if i think you're wrong, i'm going to try and not say anything. i always feel as if trying to convince someone is akin to begging, because it puts you in a position where you show that you have something to lose by that person not believing you. well that's probably untrue in most cases, but i just don't feel like the ernesty necessarily to convince others is in me anymore.
finally, i find it hard to really understand why i feel what i feel about people sometimes. sometimes i feel more machine than man when it comes to these things; my attitudes seem to come with switches. i can't help but feel as if some switches have been tripped, and affection has been replaced by an odd resentment, and a realization that we are not the same after all, and i'm sorry to have wasted all this time believing we were.
perhaps i've changed somehow, in the past 3 weeks or so. life does that sometimes.
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