i've been watching the moon rise. there's something about having heavenly bodies which makes distance seem a little bit more complicated. the moon here isn't any different from the moon back home in singapore, but somehow, everything else is. i've figured out what the malaise that i've felt afflicted with over the past few days have been. it transcends most of the problems big and small that i can put my finger on. it's really this feeling of being prematurely homesick.
i suppose the fact is, i've made a home for myself here. it's really the first place i've ever really felt ownership for. i mean, it's not like living under your parents' roof. it's my own. everything in this space is mine and i've decided how to place them. it's really just a microcosm of what my life is like here relative to back home. the fact is, here, i get to decide what, when, where and how much i want in my life, and it's a feeling i've gotten used to. somehow, being back in singapore takes away from that.
it's not like life here is much better of course. it's probably not. it's just that life here seems to reflect who i am just that much more.
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