Thursday, January 29, 2009

i'm so sick and tired of fighting

i realize that being here has been a daily challenge to my identity. i think people can go through their whole life being sure of themselves, having what they think is a great grasp of who they are as people. i'm sure that on some level that kind of confidence in oneself is good. but i'm really hoping that in time, i will look back on this and be glad that i spent a lot of my time here looking at myself and who i am.

there's always that saying: the unexamined life is not worth living. perhaps that's what i feel sometimes. and if the converse is true of that statement, then the well-examined life would be very worth living. have i gotten to that point yet? perhaps. being aware of who i am and how i'm prone to react has made life more rewarding in someways. here i am, finding myself in all sorts of situations, and on some levels i'm figuring out what i am from them.

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