life is precocious in a most peculiar way

so this blog is coming up to its 2 year mark. 218th post. that's a lot of random nonsense from one person. this will be one of those posts where i'll take stock of some stuff. and realise how wrong i've been in the past.

first, life here has become somewhat fulfilling i must say. it's that could-be-better-could-be-worse feeling which typically makes me feel good. might have something to do with the weather, but things are looking up. plenty of work, plenty to do, but in the end, it's all just things and things tend to fade once they are done. what's a little disheartening is what's left at the end of the day, but i suppose the right thing to do is the worry about that when the end of the day comes, and it's still a ways off.

second, an interesting observation: it's odd how some people can be so sure of things. cos i myself can never decide anything. i put it down to incomplete information, the fact that there is no way we can ever have a good idea of everything which matters, so as close as you can get to feeling like you know something, i don't understand how anyone can go out and decide anything with qualifications. there are always qualifications, no matter what you think you know or can be sure of. at least that's what i believe.

third, rich people are so fucking annoying sometimes. okay, i suppose while i'm here, i can almost qualify as rich, but i think people who are wealthy simply do not understand what it means to value things. i'm not sure what the reason behind it is, but i guess it's just having more, and valuing everything less. rich people are so quick to dismiss their own privilege, and complain. yes, i think that's the case. rich people just complain more. which is so odd, because obviously they have less to complain about.

fourth, we all need to be more grateful about things. about life, about being able to do everything we can do. that's it. really.

these days, the one quote which keeps coming back to me, which i read on the rim of a 2 pound coin over break, is "standing on the shoulders of giants", which i believe was made famous by isaac newton. and everyday i feel as if that's where i should strive to be, to not ignore how much the great men of the past are contributing to who i am, and trying my best to go just that much further, to do something worth doing and be a worthy successor to the great legacy this world has already created. oh goodness, how arrogant this wishful thinking is.