flipping aimlessly through windows media player led me to the one lambchop album i have which i haven't heard for literally years, because when i first got it, i had decided not too long after that i didn't like it. i realised though, my taste in music has solidified in a way that would make it much more acceptable, and i was right. just enjoying it right now. something very simple and fluid about the music, very calming, which is seems just appropriate.
i think it gets to a point where you got to just realise what is important to you and keep your eyes on those things. it shouldn't be so difficult once you decide what they are, and right now, i get flashes where they are extremely clear to me, mixed in with all the other confusing things that drifts by. then it's really just a matter of getting through the rest of the time when the irrelevant tends to win out, and returning to a certain equilibrium which i can be comfortable with.
about two and a half months till i go home again, which just struck me as being very very surreal. i would have had been gone for almost nine months, which means that right now, i'm coming up inevitably to the seven months mark, which would be the longest i've ever spent away from home.
i'm ready to go home, not because life here is bad, but because it is getting to be a bit of a drag. there is not much more excitement, just routine. which can be so crippling at times. and let's not forget the rampant hypocrisy which seems to pervade my interaction with others here. it's so hard to keep pretending that you care, to pretend that other people care for you. there were a number of bad decisions made, and now i have to live with them.
oh, prague photos are forthcoming, once i get my act together to get them together
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