every mistake i've ever made has been rehashed and then replayed as i got lost along the way

so instead of concentrating on studying econ for the midterm, which is in 11 hours, i have been doing anything but. perhaps because i already know the material and it probably won't be such a hard test. perhaps cos it's just a midterm, and the teacher already said it won't be hard. perhaps cos i'm doing well in this class. perhaps i just don't give a shit. increasingly, i'm realizing how insignificant studies could be to my personal well-being. as much as doing well in class makes me feel good about myself, so does a lot of other things.

i think the idea of an opportunity is the very opposite of the idea of a regret. when one is presented with an opportunity, one can choose to seize it, or it will become a regret. so let's talk about opportunity. sometimes it's funny how we seem to find them out of nothing, and when they might be nothing. sometimes they are there and we refuse to see them. sometimes we see them and for fear of one thing or another, we choose not to acknowledge it and it passes us by. i think worst is when we see them, wish to exploit them, but in the end fail, which leads to the greatest regret of all, the might-have-been feeling mixed in with a sense of failure and disappointment. oh what horrible things they are, these regrets. makes you wish sometimes that you never got these opportunities at all.

i must note that none of the above applies to me at all. it's just a general sentiment lest anyone gets worried. i think today i've overcome some things that have been troubling me. there are so many different things we can feel for other people, and it can get so confusing at times how we approach things. but sometimes, things happen by themselves and an apparent path will appear that leads to the most natural, and therefore most appropriate, resolution.